Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Can it get any worse?

Well, I really need to vent today so what better place to do it than here? Just last month I posted about not having insurance, the kids getting sick, etc; We are having a horrible month and with Christmas right around the corner - it's even worse. We're behind on our bills, my kids Christmas is really gonna suck, I don't even have the money to buy all the stuff I wanted for baking cookies this year. I don't have any money right now for their stockings (stuff to put in them). Well, thankfully I had some credit available on my Valero card because I was almost out of gas and had to go there to get gas beause I have to work tomorrow and I was coming out of my neighborhood onto the highway, well, the car in front of me started to go and stopped. I didn't realize that she stopped and let up on the break and just barely tapped her car. She got out and I got out and we looked at her car which was fine and she said that there were no marks and she was fine but she wanted my info in case there were any damages not visible. Since there were more cars behind us I asked her to pull over on the side of the road. So...we pulled over and ( I was already depressed and stressed because of the bills, christmas,etc; It was catching up to me today) she got out of her car and walked over to my passenger door. I opened the door and told her she could sit while I looked for my card. I could feel my eyes filling with tears and my hand was shaking as I was writing everything down. She looked in the back seat and saw the two carseats and asked if I had two "little ones". I just starting crying. So...I gave her my info and left.
I don't know if she will file a claim or what. I did hit her but it was the equivalent to pulling up in my driveway and pulling up too far tapping the garbage can. There was not a single scratch or scuff on her car.

Nice, huh? Merry Christmas.


Lisa R. said...

What a bad time you're having right now, I can understand, as I've been there before. I raised my Son, now 25 as a single parent.
I held low pay , go no where jobs, was on Public assistance here and there and there were years that dollar store toys were all he recieved at christmas, just a few at that.
But Remember that your kids are warm and Dry, they have shelter and clothing, they know that you love them, and you are doing the best that you can. It's stressful this time of year and we all feel helpless and stressed. I can't afford much of anything this year either. I am married now, but with the rent, internet,phone,and being in debt over 25k , all we can hop for is our health, something for dinner every day and the health of our family. That is the best gift of all. We love each other and that's all that counts and our family understands.
Take Care and God Bless you and your children.

Hugs and Blessings,
Lisa Reinbolt
aka: Lisa R.

Anonymous said...

ive been trying my best to get a page done for you using one of your kits....hoping that it would make you feel better to be reassured that you are a very talented and generous person and even though things are tough, remmeber that hard times builds strong spirits and it wouldnt be handed out to you if God didnt believe you couldnt handle it.
Hes waiting for you to ask him to show you the way.!

cinmcw said...

Gosh, I think we should really find a support group because I'm at the bottom of the pits myself. I wish I could help you, I really do. I'm a very giving person by nature, but when the chips are down, there is no one in sight. And sadly, I have lost my health. I couldn't buy a single Christmas gift for anyone this year (or last). I can't buy food, clothes, anything at all. I'm down at the very bottom and while I appreciate the message about God and still believe in Him, I truly believe He has forgotten some of us. I just keep getting sicker and sicker, poorer and poorer, and NO ONE is here for me anymore (or ever? I was very independent all my life, helped everyone else, always told I was too sweet, that type). I will keep you in my prayers because they always seem to help! I joke they never help me, but they always seem to help others, but at least that's a great thing that happens in my life! :)

Hang in there. I truly do feel your pain and desperation. You are not alone. Remember this. It helps sometimes.

Cindy (cinmcw)

P.S. Just discovered your beautiful work. Keep this up, try to stay busy enough to keep your mind off of the negatives, if possible. I'm struggling terribly with this right now. Thank you so much for sharing. Even though my life is a shambles at this point, if I can get outside and help someone with something small (I'm 45 but live in senior citizen housing because I'm disabled), it does still make me feel good.


P.S. If you'd like someone to talk to, I'd be glad to lend a shoulder! My email is whacky, just reformatted my pc but have to do again because something went wrong, no pc all of December...missed the "fun" I have in my life via scrapping and all the fun Christmas goodies. Christmas Around the World, etc. Just started to dl and my pc crashed. Agh! This is how my life has been for 22 years now. Last 6 a nightmare. But I'm a great listener and a very caring person and give whatever and whenever I can.

Send me an email, but give me a week to get my pc back in order...again!

Please hang in there. There's nothing more certain than change...and things are constantly changing in our lives...don't quit 5 minutes before the miracle!